Spiritual Drought
I've been a Youth for Christ for almost 8 years now and I know I have been true in my service throughout. I have been a part of the Faithbuilders which is a group we've formed with my college colleagues back on our junior years. I may not be everyday in the church, but I attend masses almost every Sunday. For all these that I've been doing, I seem to have a problem. When I would listen to sessions and talks during conferences in YFC, it would go through me and it appears that it's effective, but right after the conference, I seem to be lost again and could almost forgot all the lessons and teachings that was been delivered there. During masses, I can't seem to understand the gospel and the homily as well. Every day is a normal day and every thing turns out to be just like a routine. I started reading "A Purpose Driven Life" book by Rick Warren hoping it could revive me but it did not. I even stopped reading it already for I seem to be not fruitful with those. My prayers feels so empty, and worse, it's even hard to keep my prayer time anymore. I'm really struggling right now.
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| My soul is weary and it thirst for you... |
I've been feeling this for more than a month now and I can't figure out what to do. I have a hard time feeling God's presence. For me this is something serious for I'm not used to be like this. Once, I am an active member of the YFC ministry and I grew up my faith in that. My college life was made easier because of our sharing sessions with the Faithbuilders and I used to enjoy the priest's homily during masses. And I really miss those moments when I'm praying and I can't hold back my tears from overflowing coz I'm feeling God's comfort and I felt overwhelmed with His Greatness. I've researched on cases like this, it was then I figured out, I'm in a Spiritual Drought.
Since I'm in this drought, I seemed to have a thirst in everything that I do. I thirst on the word of God. I thirst for his presence and I really want to go back. I don't want my earthly days to pass by feeling that God is distant with me because I know He loves me and He himself wants me back.
John 3:16 “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life."
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| What's happening to me right now may have a purpose and I know in His time, I can overcome. |
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| Many times He had already proved to me that no one else can care and love me that way He do. |
Even the first talk on my YFC Youth Camp days entitled "God's Love and His Plan For Me" could prove me that. I've even read this letter many times and it keeps on reassuring my Father's love for me.
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| A Father's Love Letter |
As I would read the scriptures, it would say to me over and over again. God loves Me. So what's there to doubt? I know the problem is within me. And on the course of my research, God lead me througt this blog and I was very blessed with this.
For all that could read this post, I would like to personally ask for your prayers for me.
James 5:16: The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.
Help me pray that I could find my way back to Him and restore this relationship that was lost. It is my earnest desire right now to bring back my fellowship with the Almighty Father. I truly seek for Him and I know that soon I will regain my spiritual strength in Him. I am very hopeful with His promise.
Matthews 7:7 "Ask and it will be given to you; Seek and you will find; Knock and the door will be opened to you."
